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Saturday, July 26, 2008

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 05:57:34 GMT

No offense to the teens this year but I wish I was counseling the Larry Boys one more time. Miss those days...

Camp will be good though...I know it.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 19:32:35 GMT

Spaces between entries have become longer as time goes on. That should change in a month or so, gotta keep people updated since they won't see me that often.

I visited Holland, MI on June 29th and 30th. I met with Pastor Sharon, a couple elders and one deacon from Haven Shores Community Church. I also got to visit the church building and premises. It was a great trip and meeting and I feel as though Haven Shores will be a good fit for me. Now that mostly everything has come together for this whole seminary thing I am more anxious to go than before.

The only problem I seem to be having is my feelings about what I'm leaving in Chicago. It seems as though my mind is creating its own self defense mechanism to guard against any sad feelings. The problem is that its replacing the sad feelings with angry feelings. I don't know how this works but the way I think about it is that its easier to leave someone when you don't like them. Sounds kind of dumb(and it is) but it seems to be the way my mind has been going. I'm not sure why my mind acts in this way...maybe I'm just completely nuts.

Just over the past couple days though I have been trying to combat that attitude. I want the power of the Word to come back into my life. I want my faith to really lead my life again. An issue I've been continually thinking about is the duality we face as Christians. We still tend to think that our faith and beliefs only impact one area of our life. Or instead we choose to only allow our faith to impact one area of our life. We tend to separate ourself into a Christian and then our normal everyday self. Or in my case there is Pastoral Intern J and then just J. We even do this when it comes to sports, music, movies, friendships,etc... We don't allow our faith to have access to certain areas of our life. This is not a new lesson but one that is at the heart of a majority of Christians.

Friday, June 06, 2008

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 14:51:33 GMT

Just had a conversation with Pastor Sharon from Haven Shores Community Church which is located right outside of Holland. They are looking for an intern this coming fall. They are a small congregation, around 40 worshipers on Sundays. As she described the church it seems as though there is an opportunity to do quite a bit. They don't have a youth program in place, they would be open to me preaching and she would be open to me being able to "spread my wings" as a leader. From the initial conversation it feels like a place I would like to be involved with. Just ask if you would pray alongside myself to discern whether or not Haven Shores would be a good fit for me. She still needs to get the "okay" from the congregation and then we will talk more.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 13:51:29 GMT

Jason:

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Friday, April 18, 2008

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 00:06:47 GMT

Went to another Cubs game today and low and behold it was another loss. I had a great time though and the day couldn't have been more perfect, the Cubs could've won but I won't be picky. Sat in the Bleachers which is always a good time. Here are some highlights from the game and a few pics. (i don't take many pics so sorry)

1) There was this cute asian girl sitting down the row from us...yup...that's all I have to say about that.

2) In the first inning a foul ball was hit into the upper deck. This guy tries to catch it and misses it. He proceeds to go after it and in the process tumbles down about two rows of seats. It was hillarious.

3) A homerun by the Reds landed one row in front of us. I thought about trying to catch it but couldn't risk injury to the pitching hand for a visitor homerun. The guy in front of us got a nice bruise on his stomach. If you watch the replay you can see me and nick...kinda.

4) Apparently Nick and I were on tv during the 7th inning stretch. I have no way to really confirm that but it's what Alex said.

5) Highlight of the day: A douchebag Sox fan is wearing a Sox jersey and has a sign that says "In Dusty We Trusty" The bleacher fans proceed to boo him mercilessly. He walks up the aisle with his sign and a Cubs fan grabs the sign and rips it to shreds. You should have seen this Cub fan's face as he ripped this sign, he looked like Hulk Hogan when he tears his shirt off. The security guards came and took him to side which prompted a chant of "Let Him Stay" by the bleacher faithful.

The always popular Corey Patterson returning to Wrigley.

Breakfast of Champions

The Beast aka Fukudome

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 21:31:46 GMT

Went to the Cubs game yesterday. Its always nice going to that first game of the season. The smell of hot dogs and onions throughout the concourse is just amazing. What's not amazing is how cold it is in the upper deck and how crappy the cubs played. I only took a few pics but I promise to take more when I sit in the bleachers in a couple weeks. Maybe get a nice Fukudome pic.

The new Ernie Banks statue by the front gate

No ivy just yet

Always a cool site. Funny to me how people don't realize there's a clock on top.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 18:03:59 GMT

I need love, love
Ooh, ease my mind
And I need to find time
Someone to call mine;

My mama said
You cant hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
But its a game of give and take
You cant hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes

How many heartaches must I stand
Before I find the love to let me live again
Right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on
When I feel my strength, ooh, its almost gone

I remember mama said
You cant hurry love
No you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
Its a game of give and take
How long must I wait
How muck more must I take
Before loneliness
Will cause my heart, heart to break

No, I cant bear to live my life alone
I grow impatient for a love to call my own
But when I feel that i, I cant go on
Well these precious words keep me hanging on

I remember mama said
You cant hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
Well, its a game of give and take
You cant hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes, now break!

Now love, love don't come easy
But I keep on waiting
Anticipating for that soft voice
To talk to me at night
For some tender arms
Hold me tight
I keep waiting
Ooh, till that day
But it ain't easy (love don't come easy)
No, you know it ain't easy

My mama said
You cant hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
Its a game of give and take...

Friday, March 28, 2008

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 19:00:02 GMT

Some of my new korean crushes...

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 14:55:40 GMT

My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change

Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon

We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly, An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what JUST slipped out and what went wrong

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now... Starting now

One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire

I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
than she desert me

oh i'm never speaking up again(x3)
Starting now, starting now...

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 17:01:55 GMT

Lord I thought I could this all on my own
But I cannot fight this any longer
What I'm left to ponder is
Where do I go now

I'm longing for your love, mercy and grace
I'm longing for your wonderful embrace
I'm longing to see your face

This feeling I have cannot be quenched
It's there every minute of everyday
Only by your power Lord
Can this longing be filled in every way

I'm longing for your love, mercy and grace
I'm longing for your wonderful embrace
I'm longing to see your face

I've dealt with this for so long
That it feels like a losing battle
But because of what you've done Lord
I already have the victory

I'm longing for your love, mercy and grace
I'm longing for your wonderful embrace
I'm longing to see your face